finished my last final today.  I am moving on to 5th level.  I can't be more excited.  My mom called me the other day and told me that her and my dad already bought champagne for my graduation.  It is nice to know you have made people proud.  So I am off to 2 crazy weeks of drving back and forth from here to SS.  I don't usually like driving that much but it should be fun and allow me to see my favorite people.  Super excited about the wedding coming up.  Can't wait to see everybody.  but that really sums up what life is. 

Be blessed

well Christiann did it and I feel like it will help me get it off my chest.  Grandparents seem to be the hot topic.  I just lost one grandfather in October.  He was ready and needed to go because he was so sick and sad and not himself.  I still miss him terribly.  and then just lost my other grandfather on the 19th.  This has broken my heart and working it's way on breaking my spirit.  I didn't feel it was time for him to go yet.  It was sudden and traumatic and left my grandmother lonely. I love Shreveport and love my life here and love my boyfriend, but all this has taken away my motivation and has left my angry and confused and hurt.  But it is bearable and can be gotten through .  I miss them more than words can say and have cried more and lost more sleep then any other time in my life. 

I guess that is all just needed to vent and just talk.

be blessed

life is swell.  pretty darn busy.  but so is the course of life at the end of a semester.  it is blowing me away that thanksgiving is next week and then only a couple more weeks after that.  it won't be long before i am a real person.  funny visited this weekend and it was splendifurous.  it decided i must have a part at 'arts on fire'.  it was amazing.  i also got a very nifty hat i am excited about and christmas decorations.  speaking of christmas, i couldn't stand it any longer and put my tree up last night.  it is gorgeous.  today sweetums visited and i remembered how much i miss that kid.  he really does mean tons to me.  we should talk way more.  got tons of studying to do this week plus want to get done with all sorts of little crap before break so i can actually enjoy my break.  but i guess that is about it.  god is doing a work in me so just keep that in your thoughts.

be blessed

Good week.  And amazing weekend.  So classes are going pretty good.  Behavioral Med rotation sucks just because it is so boring but in general I am learing to not be judgemental as well not be manipulated which I have to say are great characteristics to have.  Learned Thursday that complex care is passable and even get a B possibly.  I have all A's and B's which will make my GPA look lovely going into my last semester.  I am so ready for december and so ready to schedule classes for the last time in a week.  So this weekend has been crazy and it started Thursday night.  Buffalo Wild Wings with friends from school to watch the game and have a drink.  Friday running errands and hung out with Matthew's parents.  They taught me how to play Backgammon.  Saturday lunch at Catina Laredo and then on the boat for a couple of hours.  Then Matthew and I had to run around to get last minute stuff for our costumes.  We found out Thursday night about the party on Saturday night.  I was a cute Sailor.  Matthew was a hilarious clown I will probably put pictures up on myspace or facebook.  I found a new love of Jello shots.  the green and orange ones were my favorite.  So today is catching up on paperwork for clinicals and maybe even getting ahead.  No tests this week so just trying to stay on top of crap that usually piles up at the end of the semester.  Going home this weekend. Family thing on Saturday and hopefully getting a haircut sometime in there.  matthew is going with me which makes the drive so much better.  So life is really good couldnt' ask for things to be better right now.  I think I am really trying to make everything work and be great to make up for my grandfather not being able to see me graduate so I just want him to look down and be super proud.

miss you Natchitoches friends.  I want to come soon and definitely coming for the Lights if not before.  Someone tell me weekends and stuff when it starts. 

be blessed

I miss him.  I miss him so much.  I don't think I fully understood the influence he had on my life until he IS gone.  I don't think it feels REAL yet, and I don't want it to be.  It catches up to me every now and then.  I want to be back home with my dad.  I know he is having such a hard time.  I usually love being here and right now I don't feel right being here.  I get to go home this weekend again though for my grandma's b-day, so I will stop by and sit by him for awhile.  For some reason I think he is lonely.  But I know that isn't true because he is probably having a blast with Nanny.  So trying to get back into the groove of school and life in general.  I haven't had class or anything since last Tuesday and haven't been in town since Wednesday.  So that has been life.  No sleep, alot of crying, alot of laughing, no school, and alot of family. 

be blessed